It’s start when I graduate from my Junior High School. After 5-6 months of my graduate. I became often to hangout with my Junior High School friends. Some of them is school, and some of them is didn’t. My friend who didn’t school is start asking me to drink a little bit, some of them is asking me to use the ‘ganja’ for sure.
But, because of my age is so want to know ‘the new stuff in my life’, I start with try the drinks of course, but (aaarrrggh, shit!, why is that thing is so tasty?!), it’s became some of addiction to me, I was not try to stop that, but I start to drink, drink, and drink again until I collapse because of drunk.
Later that day, I wake up with a terrible headache.
My god dammed activities is keep on going within 2-3 weeks until I try the ‘ganja’.When I first try the ‘ganja’, my mind is like fly away leaving my body in the earth! And this kind of ‘high’ is became some of new addiction to me of course. I using the ‘ganja’ almost everyday on my life (in that time of course). I keep doing that until myself is become so fuckin’ stupid, and my parents is start asking me things like: “Are you drink alcohol?”, or “Are you use marijuana?”. I became tired of my parents questions, I don’t know how to answer them, and I don’t know what are they doing to me if they know I do what they have asking to me.The ‘ganja’ plus alcohols equals THE RUIN ON MY LIFE!I want to stop my bad habit, but I don’t know how to start this from where.
Until, my cousin is see me with her only eyes when I drunk.
But, my cousin is not told what she sees to my parents. But she is asking me why I do this?From that, I’ve become realize what I do is wrong. I cry in my cousin’s hug, and I promise her I will not do this again.Yeah I promise her. And I do what I promise to her. I QUIT!That time also reminds me with my Junior High School girlfriend (hahahaha).
Her name is TINA. Yeah I love her so much.
Why I put her name on my post? It’s because of my bad habit makes me cannot meet her or just to say ‘Hi’ to her for a very long fuckin’ time. And also because of my terrible habit, I cannot tell her that I love her very much. I keep lying to myself that I love her very much, I fell shy to myself if I say that when I drunk. Many of my friends are know about my condition, but they also tell the opposite condition to her, just because they don’t want to hurt her feeling or mine.
Until now, I still love her very much, but because of our distance, and because of my stupidity, she is always with someone else (T_T).
If there is a time where there is just ME and HER. I promise, I will tell her how much I love her! I don’t care what will people say to me! Fuck what people say about me! But I still love her!
If there is a time where there is just ME and HER. I promise, I will tell her how much I love her! I don’t care what will people say to me! Fuck what people say about me! But I still love her!
TINA, if you read this, I just want you to know. I STILL LOVE YOU LIKE WE FIRST MEET!! I’ll do anything to make you trust me (as well as I could do that).
To TINA’s now boyfriend: You are lucky bro! You have the most beautiful and the most kind angel on earth. Please take care of her. Keep her away from the troubles that bring a ruin to her life!Okay!
To TINA’s now boyfriend: You are lucky bro! You have the most beautiful and the most kind angel on earth. Please take care of her. Keep her away from the troubles that bring a ruin to her life!Okay!
Well, that’s a little story of my fuckin’ terrible past. But now I became a different man, with a different fuckin’ think!
For who feel intimidate with my story, I’m so sorry, I write what I do.
For who feel the same condition as mine, I just want to say, that’s life! LIFE SUCKS isn’t it?!
Friday.
28-11-2008
21.21 PM
28-11-2008
21.21 PM